I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and another one on Wednesday. I am overjoyed and disproportionately excited. I am even excited about having to pay a ridiculous sum of money because I have failed to meet any version of my deductible for myself this year and for the last five or so years. I failed because this is the first time I am even visiting a medical professional in a very very long time. No one else in my family has failed to meet their deductible and I take it as a measure of good parenting. I have never really enjoyed people who spend alot of time taking themselves to the doctor. I find it to be a bit too narcissistic for my taste, unless of course,there is something really wrong with you.

On the other hand, I just do not feel well... I have not felt well for about 4 months or longer. It is entirely possible that it is because I do nothing to take care of myself, I eat like a 10 year old and sleep like a 3 month old and have NEVER uttered any of the following words..."I don't eat white food...I don't drink... I don't eat sugar... I don't eat foods with more than one ingredient.. I don't eat red meat...." You get the point. I have managed to get by this long on good luck and good genes. I even got carded yesterday while at the liquor store buying the wine that I just mentioned that I rarely pass up!

I, nevertheless, have decided that I should see a doctor. I tend to think that they all suck - having been to so many bad ones over the years with Max and my parents. I actually sit there thinking, hey... you... over there... You are doing nothing, saying nothing and I think I actually know more that you.

I am not looking for anything to be wrong with me - I actually, despite the previously mentioned vices, have a ridiculously optimistic view of myself, my mortality and my future long and healthy life expectancy. But, in this case, I think I will just enjoy the appointments for pure self-absorbed indulgence they are and and hope that I at least get a cute little blue prescription for something sexy and interesting!